This memorial site was created

in loving memory of my darling

daughter Holly.

Holly was born on the 4th January 1993

and fell asleep on the 22nd February 2006

Age 13 years.

Holly was a fun loving beautiful child and was
Always thinking of others before herself, a 
fantastic quality to have.
Holly loved art and spent most of her free time drawing,sketching
and making things out of any thing she could get her hands on.
Holly was diognosed with ewings sarcoma on the
20th May 2005.
Holly spent the next nine months in and out of
hospital having treatment, and yet very rarely 
complained.
I never thought this dissease would take my baby,
it did.

Holly is missed by all that knew her, especialy her
family, her brother is lost without her as Holly was
a brilliant sister.

Holly darling you a brave little girl, and you never
gave up, fighting till the very end.
We love you so much.

Precious Child
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still

In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then


In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart


PRECIOUS CHILD, Karen Taylor-Good (music audio)
www.compassionatefriends.org/preciouschild_child.htm

Please, don't ask me if I'm over it yet
I'll never be over it .
Please, don't tell me she is in a better place
she isn't here with me .
Please, don't say at least she isn't suffering.
I haven't come to terms why she had to suffer at all .
Please, don't tell me you know how I feel unless you have lost a child.
Please, don't ask me if I feel better,
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
Please, don't tell me at least you had her for so many years.
What year would you choose for your child to die?
Please, don't tell me God never gives us more than we can bare.
Please, just tell me you are sorry
Please, just say you remember my child, if you do.
Please. just let me talk about my child,
Please, mention my child's name, 
Please, just let me cry.
Rita Moore
 

~Free at Last ~

God Sent an Angel From Above
And gave her a special task
And when she had completed it,
God took her home to Heaven....free at last.

Holly is free from the pain of this world
The pain that a child cannot mask.
God Himself wept for Holly
Until he took her home to Heaven.....free at last

What was Holly's purpose? you wonder,
Why was she here? you ask
God had her here to teach us love,
Then took her home to Heaven.....free at last

Love is not what we think it is,
It doesn't leave when our time is past.
Holly loved many while she was here.
Now she is sharing it with God in Heaven.....free at last.

Holly can say the words she has wanted to say,
That were held captive in the heart she had.
"Mommy I love you", & she is whispering.
she is giggling about her brother to God and the angels...free at last

she is hopping, skipping, eating, clapping
And running really, really fast,
All across streets made of Gold.
Up in Heaven where she is....free at last.

by Lisa Little

My mom she says she can't live without me
and people can't understand
because everyday they see her 
breathing,talking, eating...living in this no mans land.

My mom she says shes heartbroken and yet she is so mad,
 becaue the Dr. he assures
your heartbeat is still very strong ma'am.
My mom she says it hurts to breathe
the aching, sweeling pain and knot in her throat make it impossible
 to look at me too long.
My mom she surrounds herself in memories, and people think she's going mad, 
they don't seem to get it through their thick heads, 
they can't understand.

Memories of me is all she'll EVER have.

My mom she visits me and thinks of me everyday, 
yet never can seem quite able to put into words for you too understand.
Even now, even then, even tommorow how bad her heart will always ache.
My mom, you see, she misses me, I was her light, she lived, breathed, ached and had hopes and dreams for me.

My mom...My mom one day she lost all of this, the day she lost me~
Written By Holly Garza Ortega 
Copywritten by Publish America

Im going to tell you something,
I hope you never know.
Ill tell you how a heart can break,
and tears can constanley flow.
I lost my little girl you see,
an angel in my eyes.
God chose to take her hand one
day and led her to the skies.
Please do not forget my child
she was a person too,
and forever she will live inside
of me and you.
So, please dont tell me that time
will heal my pain,
because not even time can bring her
back again.
Just tell me that she is happy in that
land way up above,
she's snuggled in an angels wings
all wrapped in mummy's love.

Mom, My mum she tells a lot of lies She never did before.,
From now until she dies, She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is, And because she can't explain, 
She will tell a little lie Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how she is, 
She'll say, "I'm alright",
If that's the truth, then tell me, why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how she is, She seems to cope so well. 
She didn't have a choice you see nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is, "
I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping".
 For God's sake Mom, just tell the truth just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life, I loved her all of mine, 
But if you ask her how she is, She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven I cannot hug from here, 
If she lies to you don't listen, 
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
 We'll smile and I'll be bold. 
I'll say,You're lucky to get in here Mom With all the lies you told.

~ Author unknown~

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked
through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today for life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
You knew you shouldn't do.


But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
Love you lots
Holly xx

I Looked Towards The Clouds Today
And For A Moment Saw Your Face.
I Wondered Just Where You Have Gone,
With Hope Its To A Better Place.
Did You Show Your Face To Me Today?
To Tell Me Your Alright.
Or Was It Just A Day Dream
Playing Tricks Upon My Site?
We Will Alway's Feel The Void Inside
Because You Are Not Here,
But Each Thought You Send Our Way
Let's Us No That You Are Near.
So Until our Journey Nears Its End,
And We Hear The Angels Sing,
We'll Face Each New Day As It Comes,
And Live Off The 
Love You Bring

My Mum is
a survivor, 
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mum,
who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.
My mum tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mum
through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.
I know that doesn't help her...
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
and show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...
no matter what she feels
My mum has a broken heart
that time wont ever heal.

~Author Unknown ~

A Child that loses a parent is an orphan,
A Man who loses his wife is a widower,
A Woman who loses her husband is a widow,
There is no name for a parent that loses a child,
and For there is no word to describe the pain.

IT ONLY SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY SINCE YOU WENT AWAY,
GOD CALLED FOR YOU TO EARN YOUR WINGS,OH HOW IT BROKE MY HEART THAT DAY!
AS TIME GOES BY I WONDER IF THINGS WILL GET ANY EASIER FOR ME...
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO AWAY,JUST TELL ME HOW CAN THIS BE?
LIFE CAN SEEM SO UNFAIR WHEN WE LOSE THE ONES WE DEARLY LOVE, YOU FIND YOURSELF WONDERING JUST WHAT YOU'RE WORTHY OF.
ONE MINUTE ALL YOU LOVE IS THERE AND IN AN INSTANCE IT'S ALL GONE, ALTHOUGH I HAVE YOUR MEMORIES,HOW CAN I CARRY ON?
I KNOW A PART OF YOU IS STILL HERE WITH ME AND WILL FOREVER BE,
INSIDE MY HEART I CARRY YOU AND ALL YOUR MEMORIES.
EACH TIME I FEEL I'M ALL ALONE & THAT YOU'RE FAR AWAY... I'LL LOOK INSIDE THIS HEART OF MINE,WHERE YOU'LL FOREVER STAY! 

"WRITTEN BY DAWN ELMORE"...3-07-07

Holly and her stepdad

~The Compassionate Friends Creed ~

We need not walk alone.
We are the compassionate Friends.
We reach out to each other with love,
With understanding and with hope.
Our children have died at all ages and from many different causes,
But our love for our children unites us.
We come together from all walks of life, from many different circumstances.
We are a unique family because we represent many races and creeds.
We are young, we are old,
Some of us are far along in our grief, but others still feel a grief
so fresh and so intnsely painful that we feel helpless and see no hope.
Some of us are struggling to find answers,
Some of us are angry, filled with guilt or in deep depression, others
radiate an inner peace,
But what ever pain we bring, it is pain we will share just as we share
with each other our love for our children.
We are all seeking and struggling to build a future for ourselfes,
But we are commited to building that future together as we reach out
To each other in love and share the pain as well as the joy, share
The anger as well as the peace,share the faith as well as the doubts,
And to help each other to grieve as well as to grow.
We need not walk alone,

~We are the compassionate Friends~


www.tcf.org.uk